To New Chapters

This poem encapulates my life at the moment.

I'm recording this post as a cyber capsule to myself - I feel stuck and despite my best efforts can't seem to reach what I need break the threshold. At the same time, there have been a lot of changes and I do not have control over any of it and it's been frightening considering my future depends on it.

I feel like I am looking at life from both the present and future and on both ends, all of me awaits with hope. Which is ironic considering how hopeless s#!+ has been. 

To Bless the Space Between Us

“In out-of-the-way places of the heart,

Where your thoughts never think to wander,

This beginning has been quietly forming,

Waiting until you were ready to emerge.

For a long time it has watched your desire,

Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,

Noticing how you willed yourself on,

Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.

It watched you play with the seduction of safety

And the gray promises that sameness whispered,

Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,

Wondered would you always live like this.

Then the delight, when your courage kindled,

And out you stepped onto new ground,

Your eyes young again with energy and dream,

A path of plenitude opening before you.

Though your destination is not yet clear

You can trust the promise of this opening;

Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning

That is at one with your life’s desire.

Awaken your spirit to adventure;

Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;

Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,

For your soul senses the world that awaits you”

                - John O’Donohue